It is now March 2010, the accident seems like yesterday.....I still hope you will walk down the drive again, stand in the doorway of your home, sit at the computer and eat me out of house and home.....but never again will I have these chances....to tell you I love you , to game about with you as we used to, to have a bear hug as we did in the kitchen, for you to help me cook tea.....it is all gone...my hopes and dreams for you vanished when you took your last breath....why o why has life done this to you Ryan???? I don't understand !!!! I will never be the same without you.....my heart is broken and pains everyday.....I go outside with a smile on my face ,but no one knows the pain I hide...the sickness I feel in the pit of my stomach all day and every day....I cannot bear life without you Ry, but until I die I guess I have no choice. Love you with all my heart Ryan Mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx