I have lost a life- Not my own- But it would have been easier To have lost my own life- Than to have lost the life I loved more than my own. You meant the world to me Ryan....to see you grow from a baby, to a toddler, to a teenager, to a young man...and then you were gone...taken from me..just as you were blossoming....life makes no sense anymore...it never will again...the pain never goes...it stabs through my shattered heart...I will never be the same again without you. Mum xxx